Here's what I'm grateful for: December 21st has come and gone and every day now is longer than the one before. This is serious business for me. I don't know why it took so many decades to connect my mood to the cycle of the seasons. Before I got sober, I would just slip slowly into depression every fall... sleeping too much, overeating, and by November... sealing myself into a state of pickled hibernation that lasted for months. The lack of understanding could have killed me so many times it still makes the back of my neck crinkle when I think about it.
Of course, this was only one of the reasons I drank. but it's the one that's on my mind right now that it's completely dark at 5:30pm. The insight has changed the way I do a few things. I spend a lot on good quality running gear and I run even if I only have time for twenty minutes because I really do believe my life could depend on it.
What I'm REALLY grateful for is that being in recovery is like pushing away from December 21st and being confident life will keep getting better beyond June 21st.
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thanks for the post, conover.
we're down south for xmas, and it's pretty sweet to have an extra hour or two of sunlight. looked around the other night at 5 and was disoriented to find the sun still up...
keep running! keep posting! merry xmas!
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